I Guess YOU Didnt Get The Message . . .

*I wrote this back in May after I did the taping for Judge Alex . . . most of you read it but I guess you didnt GET it. Shit happens and thats LIFE . . .  True Friends are FOREVER but in NIGHTLIFE you have NONE . . .

I do not believe in PUBLICLY removing yourself because the MASSES won’t leave you alone. That ain’t me.

Some people are just really mean and like to manipulate their higher advantage to bully you off the area but they in fact feel threatened by your presence.

I HATE people like that . . . I’m just saying

MOREOVER there have been situations and events that occurred in my life and I haven’t really elaborated on them or felt the need to really be vocal about it because I don’t give a fuck. Sorry for being so rash with the use of language but I don’t. ::shrugs shoulders:: LOL


But I will say when meeting new people and socializing with the MASSES you accumulate a large amount of ASSOCIATES. Some to whom you become close, then a select few you grow CLOSER to becoming BEST FRIENDS or so you may think until situations get STICKY.


To that I will say there will be decisions that you make helped determined by these KEY Words :


“We are cool but just NOT THAT COOL”

Lesson of the day: People are phony and may surround themselves by friends of CONVENIENCE. That’s life. People are stepping-stones and some people are just meant to be STEPPED on.

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Not to imply I STEPPED on anyone but I rather felt like a STONE in most situations . . . People will co-sign you when they "think" others "think" you are cool . . .  The minute public perception shifts People become more afraid to think on their own and fall back until society re-evaluates whats COOL
  

I been the same since DAY 1 so how you liked me yesterday but today I am an "evil bitch"?

I have no respect for posers . . .

Where's YOUR Identity . . .

 

PINK MONKEY!!!

So October was my Big Birthday month . . .

Not much EXCITEMENT . . .  I just felt OLDER (BLAH)

I did party HARD  . . .

 

Me and CB of Damonne Ent at Imperial






Me and Rich P from DBO Ent at Ocean's 8 in Brooklyn





Me, Eddy Shades, and 5th Ave at Element


Thank You Eddy Shades, DBO, Dammone Ent, and Espionage Ent for showing me maaadddd Birthday Love

Most IMPORTANTLY

Thank You Picture Perfect Cake Studios For making this WONDERFUL creation

I Need Blog-cation . . .

Im tired of the DRAMA

Its no secret all the negativity I receive . . . In hand I have tons of people who appreciate my VOICE . . .

Time to take a break . . .

Work, School, My LIFE has me toooo caught up . . .


Sorry My Pink Monkey has to be put on HOLD . . .

Happy 4th of July!!!

I know we are all glad to finally kick off the beginning of a GREAT and hopefully RAIN FREE summer with this 3 and possibly for some of you 4 day weekend. Well I would like to here how you the READERS are spending your 4th of July. With all the events ranging from All White Affairs to Cookout and outdoor concerts, How are you rockin' out?

Last night I kicked off my weekend at The Governors Ball at Providence

Me and Boss Lady getting our ALL WHITE on at Providence


You can submit your story HERE in the comments section as well as a link to a pic of you having a good time.

For a picture to make it easy you can use twit pic uploader at twitpic.com or you ubertwitter twit pic link. You can also submit a link to any other album share such as photobucket or facebook if you know how.

I look forward to hearing your stories

So YOU call yourself a [fill in the blank]

People LOVE to hold these prestigious titles such as WRITER, DESIGNER, MODEL, CEO, MOGUL etc. but really fail to live up to the description these titles convey. They reap all the benefits and accolades their so-called labels reflect without putting out anything WORTHY of the attention and/or praise.

First, I have to say it is so EASY to WOW the masses with bullshit. People become FAMOUS or POPULAR just because and we, THE MASSES, feed into it, in turn making these subjects even MORE popular when all they possess is beauty, charisma, or just a good idea and not even an overwhelming amount of TALENT, just mediocre.

One thing is these SUBJECTS market themselves really well and convince others to do so too by gaining the MASSES support and captivating their attention.

People should be rewarded for what they ACTUALLY DO and not just what they CLAIM to want to do or accomplish . . . Im just saying . . .

Sometimes I feel I am too overly praise for the things that I do. Although I am grateful for the people that encourage me with their positive words and support but sometimes I just wanna say “it’s just not that serious.” Not to come off as ARROGANT but as being humble because the things people admire is only because they are looking from the outside into what they perceive to be my life.

This blog was pretty much intended to call out all the fake and phony self-proclaimed people. I wanted to stifle the state of procrastination by encouraging them to STOP saying what they are going to do and START doing what GOD enabled them to do (or so they claim) but it ended up promoting and even BIGGER message.

Lesson of the day: Don’t believe the hype. It is YOU, the masses, who give people power so be careful with the things your attention may encourage it could make the NEXT person FAMOUS. The rest I will leave for another blog.

Good Day!!!

Ok So I Took a Break from Blogging for the Month of May

I been stressed out just with the personal issues of everyday life and I had to take a step back to focus on other things like a JOB. Still looking for a STEP UP (preferably a office day job) as well as expanding my clientele for my website, makeup, and writing services that I do offer.


I limited my partying (of course yall aint notice) but its a RECESSION everywhere especially in NIGHTLIFE. This feeling ain’t NEW, since December I have felt there’s nothing tantalizing out there about the lights that FLASH these days limiting my choice of venues and social crowds but I will STILL continue to SEARCH.

On another note, I do not believe in PUBLICLY removing yourself because the MASSES won’t leave you alone. That ain’t me.

Some people are just really mean and like to manipulate their higher advantage to bully you off the area but they in fact feel threatened by your presence.

I HATE people like that . . . I’m just saying

MOREOVER there have been situations and events that occurred in my life and I haven’t really elaborated on them or felt the need to really be vocal about it because I don’t give a fuck. Sorry for being so rash with the use of language but I don’t. ::shrugs shoulders:: LOL


But I will say when meeting new people and socializing with the MASSES you accumulate a large amount of ASSOCIATES. Some to whom you become close, then a select few you grow CLOSER to becoming BEST FRIENDS or so you may think until situations get STICKY.


To that I will say there will be decisions that you make helped determined by these KEY Words :


“We are cool but just NOT THAT COOL”

Lesson of the day: People are phony and may surround themselves by friends of CONVENIENCE. That’s life. People are stepping-stones and some people are just meant to be STEPPED on.

ANTM DISASTER

55th and Seventh ave

I arrived at 8 am excited and not knowing what to expect. Me and my friends got on the line on 55th and Seventh Ave.

As time progress the line began to move around the building. Over 4000 people were out there.


56th and Seventh ave

After 1130 the line began to move in significance we were on 56th and 7th side of the building where we assumed the entrance was but by the time we got to the entrance we were mistake, we had to go around the building for a third time.

By 2pm we realized time was getting close to the end, casting was scheduled to commence at 3pm. Hoping for a time extension we continue to wait on line. We were more than half way around the building so far located on 56th and Broadway. By that time I was hungry and exhausted so I banded my crew together and we moved through the line cutting at least 300 people and found a spot on closer to the entrance on 55th and Broadway. Minutes later the line began to move like raging waves and people were pressed so tightly against one another you could barely breathe.

Half way down 55th St, so close to the entrance people's agitation started to show. Hundreds of people, some who clearly didnt belong on line, were squished together between and wall and street barricades and whenever the line moved people ran in frenzy praying not to fall or get trampled on. Clearly it seemed out of control and an accident waiting to happen.


The cops breaking up the riot 55th st

A girl was on line where she was accompanied by her family, two men and a woman. The family was extremely hood, unkempt and rowdy. They obviously looked like they didnt belong and I was worried because they seemed like trouble. Another woman who was animated and cheerful throughout the entire adventure was annoyed at the fact the family was there as started to cause a commotion. Words were exchanged and threats were made against the woman by the family and the police removed the family from the scene. The woman who then began laughing and started to roll a blunt and smoke on line.

At around 4:50 pm a car started to smoke and make a loud ticking noise. Thinking it was either a fire or bomb, people began to panic while running in all directions pushing and knocking down one another. One of the men from the family ran back in the crowd to attack the women whom he had exchanged words with chasing her starting a riot because someone yelled that the man had a weapon.



In midst of it all people were injured. It was so scary that a girl had a seizure on site from being it all the commotion. More people were injured but not as seriously.

Footage taken by a spectator in The Dream Hotel. At the end of the video you see the man who was wearing white and the girl in red being arrested. They were the family on the line who helped contribute to the chaos.




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The WRONG Type of Black Person

I am very pissed off . . . ok well just annoyed . . . some people can be so narrow-minded.

Today I had a condescending asshole tell me how the word “monkey” was a derogatory term for Blacks which I am well aware of and in spite I still refer to myself as the Pink Monkey. Monkey may also be perceived by some as the female private but I don’t care how many colloquialisms are associated with the word if that is not what I am representing or trying to convey.

Monkey as an international symbol represents a lot of positive things, that is why I choose to identify with it, and I choose to disregard the negativity because if you claim it, it’s yours in essence.

There is nothing negative about using the animal monkey to represent my vision and me. Monkeys in the Chinese Zodiac stand for cunning, agile, humanity, benevolence, playfulness, inspiration, wittiness and curiosity.

He was none the wiser and when I suggested that he needed to broaden his horizons since he claimed to be so well rounded with such a high GPA he insulted my education and lack of possessing a degree. He said as a Black woman I should know who Maya Angelou was or Toni Morrison and what they stood for as if I already don’t.

Maybe he thought he was doing some type of justice since today is a prominent holiday for Black people. Who knows?

He must not know what Pink Monkey stands for because coming at me in any way is asking for trouble. Monkeys are also known for loving mischief. So don’t F*** with me.

Ok, I may seem overly sensitive but he tried to challenge my education and intelligence and was extremely condescending by pointing out those black history facts, as if I’m too stupid to known them already.

Anyone who decides to bestow knowledge that is suppose to uplift us as Black people is surely diffusing the purpose by simultaneously putting the same Black person down.

In conclusion, there is such a thing as the WRONG type of Black person.

Please I ask everyone to broaden their mind and views in regards to the world as a whole. We should know OUR History. We should know Black History. But there is sooooo much to learn from every culture and civilization and to limit ourselves in that essence is defeating the purpose of progression and achieving higher plateaus like Martin Luther King Jr has striven to do and Barack Obama has done.

Happy MLK Jr Day

Lost In a Fairy Tale

A Beautiful girl always
She was all alone
A flower that blossomed
Although it took too long

Tribulations of society
Had eaten away at her case
Self-esteem left faltered
By which attention from men replaced

Exuding warmth and brilliance
She cracks a vibrant smile
Attracting a man
That seems willing to go the mile

Charming he is at first
Yet not the one for she
A boulevard marred by passion
Manipulation, distrust and misery

She needs to evaluate
The choices that she makes
Emphasize on quality
Instead of the art of conjugate

The path she follows
Will be the story of her life
A Heart full of anguish
Filled with characters that are trite

Longing for growth
Time soon fades away
He is not the one
She will realize that one day

To restore her passion
In what she fears the most
For the man behind the mask
Is not worth to boast

Commitments that work
When struggles subside
Not a waning moon of desire
Nor hormones that ride the tide

When it all comes down to it
A dim look left upon her face
All her peers tend to judge her
Snickering as she falls from grace


All that is left now
Is an opportunity for change
Like the Lion searching for heart
Or the Scarecrow looking for a brain

Happy New Year's . . . Resolution?

It’s a New Year

2009 . . . And while most are trying to reinvent themselves and coined catchy phrases like “09 is mine,” we must evaluate . . . . What are YOU doing differently that will secure your chances for having a successful New Year?

I DETEST new year’s resolution. Most break the first few an hour after the ball has dropped in Times Square so why set goal and/or expectations you know will not only be a challenge but something you are not disciplined enough to uphold.

Instead, set realistic goals. Evaluate your standards in life and try to live up to them. Each moment we set out on this earth to create a better day than the one before is more realistic than promising to quit a bad or ugly habit cold turkey. Most don’t know how to stop whatever negativity they put out or say the least accurately identify the quality and/or the cause.

Now I put a lot of thought into this. At first, I tried to devise my own resolution for a better 2009. One of my focuses was to stop partying. 2008 I practically lived in the club with attending the weekly event Dirty Sexy Money at Plumm hosted by former ANTM contestant Nik Pace every Monday (the event had a good run but officially died in July). Nevertheless, if I were to set that as a goal I would be breaking it if I set one foot inside any club whether it is for support of a birthday or good cause ultimately resulting in me being a hypocrite.

I modified my mindset because clubbing isn’t bad at all. It on one hand provides recreation and entertainment and on the other hand it supports people as a form of income. Nothing is wrong when you party for a purpose or an outlet (supporting a celebrity hosted event or event that supports a good cause). I am learning to be more selective at which events (not parties) I choose to attend.




Jan 2008 at The Plumm
Picture courtesy of 7days7nights.com

THE BLIND

Why when you look at me

All you see is the color of my skin

The gender in between my legs,

Or the beauty that is not from within,

You choose not to judge me,

Based on the lives that I have touched,

The steps that I take,

Or the paths that I already walked

You are none the wiser,

Of the potential I possess

The destiny that was chosen

Or the relevance of my future success

One day you will see,

I will prove every last one of you wrong,

All this criticism and negativity that you push out,

Only made me strong